Hurt

why do you think i left the guild? im sick of seeing drama, i hate drama

but im hurt too, most of us are, we have all seen what happened, yes the family is still here in this forum but its changing outside, and when things change outside they slowly change inside too

and now isya is gone, we were told it was coming back and we lost alot of stuff, yes it happens but remember their is still a loss and loss isnt overcome in just a second.

everyone has their own will but what happened to everyone sticking together.. was i just seeing things? the promises people made, and it feels like going to kaduh others were abandoned

people have changed, and we have lost members, it would be nice to see them again, sure they are here but they arn't their and that hurts too.

ok maby we should be happy for drunkie and scarlet for becoming gm's but at the same time, it still feels like a loss, im not trying to be negative about everything honestly, but ive seen this happen many times before and i'd rather not see it happen again. things are constantly changing, friends are constantly disappearing without a trace most of the time,

i miss them all.. i've lost many families, im not trying to dictate or make people do as i want, thats the last thing i want, it just feels like no one cares..

you may be feeling hurt but your not the only one, we are all feeling hurt.

i may have left the guild but i'm still here and when people bring things up in the guild they dont intend on arguments starting, they just want to be heard, not blanked to the side, lately its felt like that, say something and all of a sudden your negative about everything or your weak minded...

we arn't we just arn't being heard, to you guys it may be like everything is fine, but others are deeply hurt.
this may sound stupid but personally i could cry over this and i dont cry often, but it just feels like ive lost another family or losing.
i can't say anything without people asuming the worst, im not being negative, its just how i feel, and people telling you how to feel doesnt work. family should be for comfort, and i saw none of that in the guild chat, i felt like i was shunned.. so i left because it turned to arguments.

I feel the same was a shelf i coudlnt have put it any better. I dont feel welcome in the guild anymore, its not cocktail anymore idk what it is now, but it doesnt feel friendly and it doesnt feel like home. I feel upset by all this i really do!

-sigh- epic... Big Guild= Biggest Drama.. always!

i will have the 2 servers installed on my PC so when i want see anyone from Knudah i can Logg in.. but i will stay on Isya.. its easy idk why some1 want Brake the Family .-. anyway x) Knudah its 100% free.. No Donationts-no money for host-no server 8D and its over like 9919Shine.

ferox isya isnt coming back ever its merging with kudoh apparantly.

but isya is gone now, its been finalized, its not coming back

kaduh dous not want to merge with isya, isya wants to merge with kaduh but kaduh dous not realy feels the need to accept that request of shine, however, don't u see , how more u COMPLAIN how worse it gets, if u stop complaining we at least have something left and eventually the wounds will be scars and no open wounds anymore, but if u keep dramaing about it , of course ppl feel ennoyed and will leave, become distant, and again its not because drunkie and scarlet have another TAG above their head, that they are not part of the family, its just a stupid TAG, they are still family to me in my heart

*cough* http://omg.game-host.org/

interesting reading, see what happens i guess.

n_n btw... MSN family ftw? <3 xD flda77@hotmail.com <3

ok no one was complaining we were just informing ferox of the situation of isya, and as i said before and even you said silent .. your hurt and so are we, yes its just anoer tag but as i said it FEELS like a loss, yes they are here but if you read my post at all you would probably understand were im coming from.

i have nothing more to say, i just wanted to be heard and i have made my feelings quite clear, if people want to know they can read it.

they BEGGED kaduh to merge cuz they have no other solution, isya is rly not coming back

Well ladies and gentlmen, if isya is gone and is not coming back i have to say that my pserver days are done. Was alot of fun playing with you all. Take care and if isya comes back out of the blue i'll come back. till then, Bye everyone.

we'll miss u lugapha :(

.__. ohh great so isya is not coming back then??

.> soo apparently isya is nto coming back to us??

but i do hope we still be a 1 big happy family even if isya isn't there anymore >.>

stay in touch guys!

hmmm....i see where u going...io gues some ppl have nothink but drama xD

ok first off who are you >.> i know i wasnt in cocktail that long buuut i dont remember you and noone should be butthurt in the first place about isya it was about to die it had became in my opinoin more CS reliant than OS and the majority of germans where rude and wouldent pty americans (happened to me multiple times) corrupt staff members *cough* loukas *cough*
one dev who actually did work and to my knowlegde was not up to handiling all the coding himself once they lost thunder there went there chance of have a continualy evolving server so go ahead be butthurt but isya was going down eventually one way or another and if say the germans or a corupt staff member dosent mess up kaduh if they are not careful and follow 99shine and not do anything to risk OS sueing them and chances are high hackers could take down the server now on to the guild problems yea change is going to ruin any big guild maybe we should take a lesson from sp3c voting in members? and randomly throwing out admin and Guild master is gonna blow up any guild...........

have a nice day wall of text FTW

hackers are attacking kaduh tho :O
and whats the iysa link O.o